Sunday, July 09, 2006
060277
surprised as suprised may seem to be.
i lost everything, i now have nothing.
even the most cherished and most important person in my life is now gone.
its seems that fate had led me to this, maybe its what i am been destined for. i gave my everything and i lost everything. no wonder i am nothing.
this is not self pitty, this is nongs reality. i only have P2500 inside my wallet and some cards i dare not use for nothing. this all i have, this is whats left of me. and the most important person and the those friends i have been sharing my life with are now gone. all in one time.
its now a known fact how my father treats me. i wont declare some of it here.it would just create a fog around those who can read this myterious blog owned by this senseless guy who writes about his tales and about his love. but the fact still remains. everything said and was written where all true. no pretentions. i may have been doubted many times, spit and thrown out things that no one would ever taste, had been mangled and the peoples defiance of me made it harder for me to bear, words, hurting words that i never imagined that people will ever be thrown at me, and another truth is i can no longer withstand such pain i feel more so this pain i now feel deep inside me.
there was this previous post that i would like to reconsider. i lost everything but gained everything. yes its true that i lost everything yet i gained everything. i gained everything yet lost everything. its a circle. lose some, win some and then you'll lose some more. and to think you will lose more than everything, you will lose the very essence of your life that is the one that make it meaningful...that is...that one person who make your life so profound, eloquent and significant.and at the end of the day, end of one fateful day with just a blink of an eye and some 40 winks or less she has flown away.
maybe this is my fate. i believe it is. i was never been happy my whole life since i met her.
it was a desoluted 2nd of june year 77 when everything started. upon that boys birth things became sleazy and desputable. the boy was different among his siblings. and that same boy grew with a father but was never really present. that boy became as weak as a lame duck. been face to face with death twice, slept about 432 hours without waking up, had a fractured and dislocated nose & was ought to be believed and been feeared of doing grimy things that this boy now a man is capable of but wont adhere to such because of a promise to an angel more bonding than that of a leech and that sticks more than that of a stamp to an envelope.
june 02 1977, this disgusting figure of time to vindicate his or can be IT existence is just a mere substantial word coupled by 6 numbers that has no significant meaning to anyones life but for himself.ALONE.
how i deeply regret how his life turned out to be.but i wont ever regret that he loved more than he could. that is his joy and pride. but to some folks who had extrapolated this beast ostensibled to be wha he felt was a disgraced feeling of wrethcedness over and above everyone elses feelings. he never understood such reaction but placed a determining line between understanding and respect for all those who had mis judged him.
a boy to a man and now a man into a rat.filthy,unwanted untamed and that would bite any daring friendship or friends who would finally want him back again.
mucky as ever, been seen by judging eyes to be lewd and offensive.he still remained the same person he once have been considering he lost that sense of humanity in him.
september will be a significant part of this persons life. the 20th day of it will be celebrated. and with festivities, friends and loved ones will gather on this momentous occasion,he can only do but wish the celebrant well as he had ever done.
awaiting for his invitation that would never come, rsvp here and vip over there what seems to be his affirmation will be cherished moments and well kept messages that he will read on and on till the day he closes his eyes.
his tale is yet to be continued, but whats sad is there is no more tale to tell. he has nothing more to tell. his stories ends here but hell keep on living without any stories being written about him, no congratulatory hand that will shake his, no more less that of a rag been thrown in a can where a black plastic holds whats in it ever losing count of the days that passed.
his life is her. his joy is hers too.
his joys will be her joys, and her pains he will steal from her to brawl alone.
060277 is never been as great, as wonderful as 353912. for 353912 will always be his angel and be forever be his love with that 353912 will be forever be his deity that he will forever venerate.
this is not self pitty, instead this is about ...never mind, who cares anyway
i lost everything, i now have nothing.
even the most cherished and most important person in my life is now gone.
its seems that fate had led me to this, maybe its what i am been destined for. i gave my everything and i lost everything. no wonder i am nothing.
this is not self pitty, this is nongs reality. i only have P2500 inside my wallet and some cards i dare not use for nothing. this all i have, this is whats left of me. and the most important person and the those friends i have been sharing my life with are now gone. all in one time.
its now a known fact how my father treats me. i wont declare some of it here.it would just create a fog around those who can read this myterious blog owned by this senseless guy who writes about his tales and about his love. but the fact still remains. everything said and was written where all true. no pretentions. i may have been doubted many times, spit and thrown out things that no one would ever taste, had been mangled and the peoples defiance of me made it harder for me to bear, words, hurting words that i never imagined that people will ever be thrown at me, and another truth is i can no longer withstand such pain i feel more so this pain i now feel deep inside me.
there was this previous post that i would like to reconsider. i lost everything but gained everything. yes its true that i lost everything yet i gained everything. i gained everything yet lost everything. its a circle. lose some, win some and then you'll lose some more. and to think you will lose more than everything, you will lose the very essence of your life that is the one that make it meaningful...that is...that one person who make your life so profound, eloquent and significant.and at the end of the day, end of one fateful day with just a blink of an eye and some 40 winks or less she has flown away.
maybe this is my fate. i believe it is. i was never been happy my whole life since i met her.
it was a desoluted 2nd of june year 77 when everything started. upon that boys birth things became sleazy and desputable. the boy was different among his siblings. and that same boy grew with a father but was never really present. that boy became as weak as a lame duck. been face to face with death twice, slept about 432 hours without waking up, had a fractured and dislocated nose & was ought to be believed and been feeared of doing grimy things that this boy now a man is capable of but wont adhere to such because of a promise to an angel more bonding than that of a leech and that sticks more than that of a stamp to an envelope.
june 02 1977, this disgusting figure of time to vindicate his or can be IT existence is just a mere substantial word coupled by 6 numbers that has no significant meaning to anyones life but for himself.ALONE.
how i deeply regret how his life turned out to be.but i wont ever regret that he loved more than he could. that is his joy and pride. but to some folks who had extrapolated this beast ostensibled to be wha he felt was a disgraced feeling of wrethcedness over and above everyone elses feelings. he never understood such reaction but placed a determining line between understanding and respect for all those who had mis judged him.
a boy to a man and now a man into a rat.filthy,unwanted untamed and that would bite any daring friendship or friends who would finally want him back again.
mucky as ever, been seen by judging eyes to be lewd and offensive.he still remained the same person he once have been considering he lost that sense of humanity in him.
september will be a significant part of this persons life. the 20th day of it will be celebrated. and with festivities, friends and loved ones will gather on this momentous occasion,he can only do but wish the celebrant well as he had ever done.
awaiting for his invitation that would never come, rsvp here and vip over there what seems to be his affirmation will be cherished moments and well kept messages that he will read on and on till the day he closes his eyes.
his tale is yet to be continued, but whats sad is there is no more tale to tell. he has nothing more to tell. his stories ends here but hell keep on living without any stories being written about him, no congratulatory hand that will shake his, no more less that of a rag been thrown in a can where a black plastic holds whats in it ever losing count of the days that passed.
his life is her. his joy is hers too.
his joys will be her joys, and her pains he will steal from her to brawl alone.
060277 is never been as great, as wonderful as 353912. for 353912 will always be his angel and be forever be his love with that 353912 will be forever be his deity that he will forever venerate.
this is not self pitty, instead this is about ...never mind, who cares anyway
