Sunday, July 09, 2006
060277
surprised as suprised may seem to be.
i lost everything, i now have nothing.
even the most cherished and most important person in my life is now gone.
its seems that fate had led me to this, maybe its what i am been destined for. i gave my everything and i lost everything. no wonder i am nothing.
this is not self pitty, this is nongs reality. i only have P2500 inside my wallet and some cards i dare not use for nothing. this all i have, this is whats left of me. and the most important person and the those friends i have been sharing my life with are now gone. all in one time.
its now a known fact how my father treats me. i wont declare some of it here.it would just create a fog around those who can read this myterious blog owned by this senseless guy who writes about his tales and about his love. but the fact still remains. everything said and was written where all true. no pretentions. i may have been doubted many times, spit and thrown out things that no one would ever taste, had been mangled and the peoples defiance of me made it harder for me to bear, words, hurting words that i never imagined that people will ever be thrown at me, and another truth is i can no longer withstand such pain i feel more so this pain i now feel deep inside me.
there was this previous post that i would like to reconsider. i lost everything but gained everything. yes its true that i lost everything yet i gained everything. i gained everything yet lost everything. its a circle. lose some, win some and then you'll lose some more. and to think you will lose more than everything, you will lose the very essence of your life that is the one that make it meaningful...that is...that one person who make your life so profound, eloquent and significant.and at the end of the day, end of one fateful day with just a blink of an eye and some 40 winks or less she has flown away.
maybe this is my fate. i believe it is. i was never been happy my whole life since i met her.
it was a desoluted 2nd of june year 77 when everything started. upon that boys birth things became sleazy and desputable. the boy was different among his siblings. and that same boy grew with a father but was never really present. that boy became as weak as a lame duck. been face to face with death twice, slept about 432 hours without waking up, had a fractured and dislocated nose & was ought to be believed and been feeared of doing grimy things that this boy now a man is capable of but wont adhere to such because of a promise to an angel more bonding than that of a leech and that sticks more than that of a stamp to an envelope.
june 02 1977, this disgusting figure of time to vindicate his or can be IT existence is just a mere substantial word coupled by 6 numbers that has no significant meaning to anyones life but for himself.ALONE.
how i deeply regret how his life turned out to be.but i wont ever regret that he loved more than he could. that is his joy and pride. but to some folks who had extrapolated this beast ostensibled to be wha he felt was a disgraced feeling of wrethcedness over and above everyone elses feelings. he never understood such reaction but placed a determining line between understanding and respect for all those who had mis judged him.
a boy to a man and now a man into a rat.filthy,unwanted untamed and that would bite any daring friendship or friends who would finally want him back again.
mucky as ever, been seen by judging eyes to be lewd and offensive.he still remained the same person he once have been considering he lost that sense of humanity in him.
september will be a significant part of this persons life. the 20th day of it will be celebrated. and with festivities, friends and loved ones will gather on this momentous occasion,he can only do but wish the celebrant well as he had ever done.
awaiting for his invitation that would never come, rsvp here and vip over there what seems to be his affirmation will be cherished moments and well kept messages that he will read on and on till the day he closes his eyes.
his tale is yet to be continued, but whats sad is there is no more tale to tell. he has nothing more to tell. his stories ends here but hell keep on living without any stories being written about him, no congratulatory hand that will shake his, no more less that of a rag been thrown in a can where a black plastic holds whats in it ever losing count of the days that passed.
his life is her. his joy is hers too.
his joys will be her joys, and her pains he will steal from her to brawl alone.
060277 is never been as great, as wonderful as 353912. for 353912 will always be his angel and be forever be his love with that 353912 will be forever be his deity that he will forever venerate.
this is not self pitty, instead this is about ...never mind, who cares anyway
i lost everything, i now have nothing.
even the most cherished and most important person in my life is now gone.
its seems that fate had led me to this, maybe its what i am been destined for. i gave my everything and i lost everything. no wonder i am nothing.
this is not self pitty, this is nongs reality. i only have P2500 inside my wallet and some cards i dare not use for nothing. this all i have, this is whats left of me. and the most important person and the those friends i have been sharing my life with are now gone. all in one time.
its now a known fact how my father treats me. i wont declare some of it here.it would just create a fog around those who can read this myterious blog owned by this senseless guy who writes about his tales and about his love. but the fact still remains. everything said and was written where all true. no pretentions. i may have been doubted many times, spit and thrown out things that no one would ever taste, had been mangled and the peoples defiance of me made it harder for me to bear, words, hurting words that i never imagined that people will ever be thrown at me, and another truth is i can no longer withstand such pain i feel more so this pain i now feel deep inside me.
there was this previous post that i would like to reconsider. i lost everything but gained everything. yes its true that i lost everything yet i gained everything. i gained everything yet lost everything. its a circle. lose some, win some and then you'll lose some more. and to think you will lose more than everything, you will lose the very essence of your life that is the one that make it meaningful...that is...that one person who make your life so profound, eloquent and significant.and at the end of the day, end of one fateful day with just a blink of an eye and some 40 winks or less she has flown away.
maybe this is my fate. i believe it is. i was never been happy my whole life since i met her.
it was a desoluted 2nd of june year 77 when everything started. upon that boys birth things became sleazy and desputable. the boy was different among his siblings. and that same boy grew with a father but was never really present. that boy became as weak as a lame duck. been face to face with death twice, slept about 432 hours without waking up, had a fractured and dislocated nose & was ought to be believed and been feeared of doing grimy things that this boy now a man is capable of but wont adhere to such because of a promise to an angel more bonding than that of a leech and that sticks more than that of a stamp to an envelope.
june 02 1977, this disgusting figure of time to vindicate his or can be IT existence is just a mere substantial word coupled by 6 numbers that has no significant meaning to anyones life but for himself.ALONE.
how i deeply regret how his life turned out to be.but i wont ever regret that he loved more than he could. that is his joy and pride. but to some folks who had extrapolated this beast ostensibled to be wha he felt was a disgraced feeling of wrethcedness over and above everyone elses feelings. he never understood such reaction but placed a determining line between understanding and respect for all those who had mis judged him.
a boy to a man and now a man into a rat.filthy,unwanted untamed and that would bite any daring friendship or friends who would finally want him back again.
mucky as ever, been seen by judging eyes to be lewd and offensive.he still remained the same person he once have been considering he lost that sense of humanity in him.
september will be a significant part of this persons life. the 20th day of it will be celebrated. and with festivities, friends and loved ones will gather on this momentous occasion,he can only do but wish the celebrant well as he had ever done.
awaiting for his invitation that would never come, rsvp here and vip over there what seems to be his affirmation will be cherished moments and well kept messages that he will read on and on till the day he closes his eyes.
his tale is yet to be continued, but whats sad is there is no more tale to tell. he has nothing more to tell. his stories ends here but hell keep on living without any stories being written about him, no congratulatory hand that will shake his, no more less that of a rag been thrown in a can where a black plastic holds whats in it ever losing count of the days that passed.
his life is her. his joy is hers too.
his joys will be her joys, and her pains he will steal from her to brawl alone.
060277 is never been as great, as wonderful as 353912. for 353912 will always be his angel and be forever be his love with that 353912 will be forever be his deity that he will forever venerate.
this is not self pitty, instead this is about ...never mind, who cares anyway
Saturday, June 10, 2006
this wall,this particular wall beside me
its nice that my kuya always leave his laptop here sa hospital whenever di na ginagamit.wala na kc akong ibang mapaglibangan and its nice din na kuya along with his laptop lagi nya din iwan o2 nya para meron ako magamit na internet connection.eto its why i can now write and add another sordid tale dito sa blog ko.its 2:30am and still di sya sumumpong ngayon. its lonely and sad here.pag gabi ako lang mag isa like ngayon im alone here.pinauwi ko na kc si kuya pagod din kc yun. just finished crying kanina.kasi ang lungkot dito.i cant talk to anyone but this particular wall im leaning nto ngayon.when im sad,sya kinakausap ko (call me buang or may sayad but what else can i do here but to talk kahit there is no one around listening) di kc ako makadain sa iba i dont want to burden and worry them lalu na SYA si Cecil.ayoko makaabala sa kanya which alam ko din na meron din sya mga sad stories to tell.when it hurts so badly like someone is ripping my torso apart dito din sa wall na ito ako dumadaing, ayoko na ring dumaing sa family ko feeling ko pabigat na ako masyado sa kanila.to think uu meron ako pangshare sa mga gastusin pero sa pagod,hirap,tyaga at oras na nasasayang, masyado na akong pabigat.i dont want my Dear to worry din e kc alam ko meron din sya mga pains,hurts and aches na kinikimkim,its a shame on my part kc di ko man lang sya matulungan.instead lahat sinasabi ko dito sa wall nato or sometimes pag dito ang laptop ni kuya lagi ko lang tinatype mga daing ko sabay bura para walang makabasa.nakakahiya na.i always pray na sana mawala na lahat to kc hiyang hiya na ako e.sa totoo lang i celebrated my birthday pa here sa hospital.at gumawa pa ako ng katangahan on the day of my birthday which feeling ko pinagtatawanan ako ng mga tao dito.ok lang naman e.sanay na rin akong pinagtatawanan.sanay na rin ako mapagalitan.when i pray which i always do,i sometimes ask God to speed up things for me so everything will be over.infact im ready and prepared for what wil eventually happen.i bode everbody significant sa buhay ko ng goodbye e and i already told them what to do incase i go.but still eto dito parin ako.nahihirapan sa sobrang sakit pag madalas na sumusumpong.ayoko ko na dito lalo lang ako nahihirapan.ayoko na rin pinapakita sa mga tao na nakapaligid sakin na umiiyak ako maliban dito sa wall na to.kung nakakasumbong lang cguro tong wall na to ang dami na nyang sinumbong.im glad na di sya nakakapagsalita and im glad that it only hears but cant speak out.the truth is i just want to be heard e wala lang yun lang.maybe tatagal pa ako dito.its good i have this wall to keep me company.
salamat CeciL ha.You know how i appreciate everything, yun lang nga meron lang talaga akong mga lapses e.take care lagi ha.be safe lagi.if You need anything dito lang ako.if i have to strain every part of my body, every part of me gagawin ko.salamat Cecil ha.GOd bless
sa limang tao na bumati sakin ng happy birthday(aside sa family ko), salamat!kahit di nyo to nababasa im very grateful you all remembered.its an all time high sakin e.last year kc 3 lang bumati sakin.this year is a record breaker.SALAMAT
salamat CeciL ha.You know how i appreciate everything, yun lang nga meron lang talaga akong mga lapses e.take care lagi ha.be safe lagi.if You need anything dito lang ako.if i have to strain every part of my body, every part of me gagawin ko.salamat Cecil ha.GOd bless
sa limang tao na bumati sakin ng happy birthday(aside sa family ko), salamat!kahit di nyo to nababasa im very grateful you all remembered.its an all time high sakin e.last year kc 3 lang bumati sakin.this year is a record breaker.SALAMAT
Sunday, May 28, 2006
message of the baghavat
sometimes im the pigeon, most of the time im the statue where pigeons peck at. i dont regret it i cant do anything about it.its life and i should be thankful for it.but what im very thankful for everyday of my life is, God gave me the chance to talk,listen, be heard, experience and be with an angel.
thank you for everything my Dear Cecil. i will always love you until the day i will close my eyes and blink for a long period of time.i will always be here for you.
thank you for everything my Dear Cecil. i will always love you until the day i will close my eyes and blink for a long period of time.i will always be here for you.
its lights out for you nong.how long?not long!but soon.
fancy pansy. ..
to all the people ive failed and hurt im very sorry. to all of you who i did wrong im very sorry.everything is too short of a time for me to do all of you good. a baghavat message.SORRY i didnt mean to fail you all.
im so tired
fancy pansy. ..
to all the people ive failed and hurt im very sorry. to all of you who i did wrong im very sorry.everything is too short of a time for me to do all of you good. a baghavat message.SORRY i didnt mean to fail you all.
im so tired
Thursday, May 18, 2006
is everything n reverse?why not!
i had the chance to talk to my ate again.i mean for hours.we cried.i have this feeling that ill be going soon.i asked ate so many things.asked her things he thought would be impossible for any man to ask.i simply told her that nothing is impossible if we put our minds to it.some positive thinker i am.i have this contradicting concept of dying and at the same time positivity sits in with me.absurd right?anyway.its how life goes.everything is a short pass on everything.ill be turning a year older in a few days right after my ate will.we suffer the same fate, we stayed and remained tenacious.ate confessed to me that she is seeing someone.that maybe he is the perfect man for her.im so happy for her.im very proud of my sister.im also very proud of my brother. as ive stated on my previous blog entry.PROUD is a term na pede kong gamitin sa iba pero di pede gamitin sakin. im not proud of myself actually.never done any significant thing sa buhay ng ibang tao.more so s buhay ko.i achieved nothing, i never had the chance to have a lasting effect on someone. its like my life is on reverse.just like the song, i started a joke by the beegees.i started a joke and started the whole world crying. i started to cry and started the whole world laughing.im not sure if everyone is laughing at because of the way i look,talk,etc.but i suddenly life is like laughing at me.ang bigat ng pakiramdam e.i lost my job, my career, lost everything good and someday im going to lose her just like the way im losing her everyday.i love her so much that she became the most important person in my life, that shes been the best thing that happend in my life.i know i wont stay long here but i got everything in place so i dont have to worry about anything.my family will know what to do.i just hope i could stay long to see her fulfilled,sucessful and with sustained happiness.i want to give her that,its one of the simple things i want in life.to see her happy.this is what i want to do with my life.to make and see her happy.hay.sighs, sighs and just sighs.
if id only see that the joke is on me.maybe i dont know.it could be.whenever i cry the world will laugh,if i stumble and fall maybe the world will rejoice.yes i stumbled and fell.i will pick up the things i dropped ALONE.i will always be alone.and that day will come that ill go still being alone.
i look at the sky running my head over my eyes. and i fell out of bed hurting my head from things that ive said.
in away theres this kind of regret of all what ive said earlier in this entry.positivity in motion.is what she told me.positivity is what keeps the jobs done.im really proud of her.for what she was, what she is now and what shell become pa in the future.im very much proud of her indeed.
IGPA,
oh, just keep me here until i see her in good and safe and in caring arms.just until i see that time comes, please?if its your decision to take me so be it.and if everything is n reverse,why not as long as you keep her in the right path.just as long as you lead her and guide her to that happiness,joy and love she has always been praying for.let it last for a lifetime.from there,i would ask you of anything no more.so be it!
God Bless You my Dear.i say all my prayers for you my Dear.
take care lagi ha.God bless
if id only see that the joke is on me.maybe i dont know.it could be.whenever i cry the world will laugh,if i stumble and fall maybe the world will rejoice.yes i stumbled and fell.i will pick up the things i dropped ALONE.i will always be alone.and that day will come that ill go still being alone.
i look at the sky running my head over my eyes. and i fell out of bed hurting my head from things that ive said.
in away theres this kind of regret of all what ive said earlier in this entry.positivity in motion.is what she told me.positivity is what keeps the jobs done.im really proud of her.for what she was, what she is now and what shell become pa in the future.im very much proud of her indeed.
IGPA,
oh, just keep me here until i see her in good and safe and in caring arms.just until i see that time comes, please?if its your decision to take me so be it.and if everything is n reverse,why not as long as you keep her in the right path.just as long as you lead her and guide her to that happiness,joy and love she has always been praying for.let it last for a lifetime.from there,i would ask you of anything no more.so be it!
God Bless You my Dear.i say all my prayers for you my Dear.
take care lagi ha.God bless
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
stories to tell, if they are only interesting
clever people tells a clever story. hay. dreamed something nice last night. masaya,glad but then i could only hope i was part of that something i saw in my dream.
i just want to write here how proud i am and how i admire the persons who are in this dream.be it inside a dreamworld or in reality.humbly i say, im proud and very much hanga sa sakanila.sobra.
it was a birthday party. whos birthday is it, its her bf's bday.i was invited, shocked cause i was invited.though it was just a dream i felt that uneasy feeling syempre her bf inviting me on his birthday?who am i for him to invite.for all i know im the guy who he learned to hate.anyway its just a dream though.wala lang just got surprised e. so i went like we all saw each other in up pampanga.kakabigla of all places sa up pampanga pa.the school has significant effect on me kaya siguro ganun.i had my back pack on like i was still attending school.they were playing volleyball the two of them.i got hit by the ball and when they approached me parang bigla ako nahiya.embarassed kc natumba ako.they picked me up were i lay and said sorry and invited me sa party nya.i instantly said nakakahiya yata but cge punta ako salamat.they said theyll expect me there.as in yung araw din na yun yung party.so umalis sila rode a bike.this is my favorite part of the dream.they went off riding a bike,they made lambing to each other as they ride along. i saw this some kind of happiness in her eyes that i dont see when we get to go out.got sad but hey she is happy why worry.she was really happy with him.she hugged him while he was driving the bike.would send text messege kahit katabi lang nya sya.ang galing.its was a nice scene to see. i arrived sa bahay nila they were all having fun.i saw them seated close at each other.everyone knows her, his family is like used to seeing her.his family loves her.anyway the party went good. everyones happy. i ate sarap nga ng food e.i had a chance to talk to his grand ma.tapos i want to make paalam na.i waited for the right time na makausap ko sya mag isa.tapos i said, alis na ako ha medyo kailangan ko ng mag rest e.alam mo na medyo sumusumpong na sya.i had a nice day today.she said hintayin mo na matapos yung party.sabi ko di ko na matiis e.cge wait ko na lang matapos yun party.tapos He came over to me and said.cguro ikaw yung guy na nagcolapse kanina no?meron kami kc kaming nakitang guy na nagcolapse habang naka bike kami e.i never replied back.cge kung uwing uwi ka na ok lang.i asked her another time.pede na daw ako uwi sabi nya can i go now?o cge uwi ka na.i bode everyone goodbye.as i walk i saw that somthing in her eyes.she was really happy.ang galing.im glad she is.sobrang glad.then i woke up with tears sa eyes ko.di nga totoo.i woke up with teary eyes.
im happy na i saw her happy kahit sa dream lang.ang galing galing talga.at etong dream lang na to ang natapos.all my life ewan ko lang ha.mga dreams ko di natatapos.laging meron cut scence tapos magigising ana ako.wala lang im just want to write here how happy i am na makita sya happy.
but in the end of this dream as i am writing this,i could only hope na i too can make her happy the way i saw her happy sa dream and saa my family also makes her happy.
clever person tells the interesting story.this story is of non interest.i have alot to tell if only these stories i have inside my pocket would tickle someones interest.di talga ako story teller.basta masaya.masaya sya masaya na rin ako.sobrang saya.and for the first time nakausap ko bf nya.im really proud of him,biruin mo he was able to pay for his tuition fee?nag work sya habang nag aaral.hangang hanga talga ako sakanya.im very much proud of him lalu the way he makes her happy, he makes her smile.his name alone makes her smile.ang galing galing talga.
maiba ako. a few days na lang ill turn a year older.i was contemplating on things, nakakalungkot.at this age wala pa ako naacomplish.i dont have something na will make everyone proud.im not proud of myself.sana lang proud sila sakin but the reality is there is nothing to be proud of.nakakalungkot lang isipin e.ang galing no?proud is a term na pede ko gamitin sa iba pero di pedeng gamitn para sakin.
i hope you are proud of me.if you are i will be the happiest person alive.
God Bless you all
God Bless You Cecil.my prayers i say them all for You.take care lagi
i just want to write here how proud i am and how i admire the persons who are in this dream.be it inside a dreamworld or in reality.humbly i say, im proud and very much hanga sa sakanila.sobra.
it was a birthday party. whos birthday is it, its her bf's bday.i was invited, shocked cause i was invited.though it was just a dream i felt that uneasy feeling syempre her bf inviting me on his birthday?who am i for him to invite.for all i know im the guy who he learned to hate.anyway its just a dream though.wala lang just got surprised e. so i went like we all saw each other in up pampanga.kakabigla of all places sa up pampanga pa.the school has significant effect on me kaya siguro ganun.i had my back pack on like i was still attending school.they were playing volleyball the two of them.i got hit by the ball and when they approached me parang bigla ako nahiya.embarassed kc natumba ako.they picked me up were i lay and said sorry and invited me sa party nya.i instantly said nakakahiya yata but cge punta ako salamat.they said theyll expect me there.as in yung araw din na yun yung party.so umalis sila rode a bike.this is my favorite part of the dream.they went off riding a bike,they made lambing to each other as they ride along. i saw this some kind of happiness in her eyes that i dont see when we get to go out.got sad but hey she is happy why worry.she was really happy with him.she hugged him while he was driving the bike.would send text messege kahit katabi lang nya sya.ang galing.its was a nice scene to see. i arrived sa bahay nila they were all having fun.i saw them seated close at each other.everyone knows her, his family is like used to seeing her.his family loves her.anyway the party went good. everyones happy. i ate sarap nga ng food e.i had a chance to talk to his grand ma.tapos i want to make paalam na.i waited for the right time na makausap ko sya mag isa.tapos i said, alis na ako ha medyo kailangan ko ng mag rest e.alam mo na medyo sumusumpong na sya.i had a nice day today.she said hintayin mo na matapos yung party.sabi ko di ko na matiis e.cge wait ko na lang matapos yun party.tapos He came over to me and said.cguro ikaw yung guy na nagcolapse kanina no?meron kami kc kaming nakitang guy na nagcolapse habang naka bike kami e.i never replied back.cge kung uwing uwi ka na ok lang.i asked her another time.pede na daw ako uwi sabi nya can i go now?o cge uwi ka na.i bode everyone goodbye.as i walk i saw that somthing in her eyes.she was really happy.ang galing.im glad she is.sobrang glad.then i woke up with tears sa eyes ko.di nga totoo.i woke up with teary eyes.
im happy na i saw her happy kahit sa dream lang.ang galing galing talga.at etong dream lang na to ang natapos.all my life ewan ko lang ha.mga dreams ko di natatapos.laging meron cut scence tapos magigising ana ako.wala lang im just want to write here how happy i am na makita sya happy.
but in the end of this dream as i am writing this,i could only hope na i too can make her happy the way i saw her happy sa dream and saa my family also makes her happy.
clever person tells the interesting story.this story is of non interest.i have alot to tell if only these stories i have inside my pocket would tickle someones interest.di talga ako story teller.basta masaya.masaya sya masaya na rin ako.sobrang saya.and for the first time nakausap ko bf nya.im really proud of him,biruin mo he was able to pay for his tuition fee?nag work sya habang nag aaral.hangang hanga talga ako sakanya.im very much proud of him lalu the way he makes her happy, he makes her smile.his name alone makes her smile.ang galing galing talga.
maiba ako. a few days na lang ill turn a year older.i was contemplating on things, nakakalungkot.at this age wala pa ako naacomplish.i dont have something na will make everyone proud.im not proud of myself.sana lang proud sila sakin but the reality is there is nothing to be proud of.nakakalungkot lang isipin e.ang galing no?proud is a term na pede ko gamitin sa iba pero di pedeng gamitn para sakin.
i hope you are proud of me.if you are i will be the happiest person alive.
God Bless you all
God Bless You Cecil.my prayers i say them all for You.take care lagi
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
completely,wholly,truthfully and gained everything
as i always say, love is not time bound. and doesnt count any wrongs or any mistakes.if we take into account every mistake or wrongs we must also be accountable to every mistake we commit everyday.were mere human beings, mistakes are our nature.but that can be ceded. what we did in the past stays in the past what we'll be doing today will be the makings of our tomorrow.
time has not limit i goes limitless. the goes with love. love is limitless. if there would be one who will make you think that love is with limits then i say it will only have limits to those who think of love is like some kind of a toy. love is not to be played around. and love is not to be used to trick one person to what we want them to do for us or what we want to do to them.its a selfish act either yet its a horible thing to do. i wont participate to any act as such.
no matter what happens, whatever it is i will always Love my Dear Cecil. as a matter of fact i love her for what she was, what she is and what she will be. my love for her is timeless,limitless. im not saying this to boast to everyone that i love her just to prove that i love her.NO! im saying this because ive said it once and ill be saying it for the rest of my life.i love her, i love her, i love her and will always love her. my Dear Cecil, i will always love her.
it may seem that no one would be able to believe whats written here in this sordid blog. i only know that i love her nothing more.
love is not timebound nor limited. it will only be if people who allegedly felt love is permitting their so called love to be as such that setting limitless bounderies in which respect and understanding, humility and trust, love and love are not present. total respect, qualified love, makes love limitless not absolute respect and tangible love.
love is not based n physical interaction.but with emotional conglomerance.
let our love be dictated by our desire to love not by the desires we love.its not love at all if that is the case. and let us not count the faults of another but let us account all the faults and let that accounting be the basis on learning and moving forward.let our love be timeless and limitless.in this way we shall feel the same we shall always be young, timeless and pure at heart.
i will love Cecil completely and with this i will be complete. i will love Cecil wholly in which in this manner i shall be whole. i will love Cecil truthfully and with that only true love i will give her.i will love her without gaining anything from her for this i will gain everything. i will love her even if she cant love me back and for this reason i have love her completely,wholly truthfully and gained everything.
ill always be here for You my Dear.im wont go far. ill always be praying for You, knees bent with face down smacked on ground to where i belong. take care now be safe and stay happy.
God bless You
time has not limit i goes limitless. the goes with love. love is limitless. if there would be one who will make you think that love is with limits then i say it will only have limits to those who think of love is like some kind of a toy. love is not to be played around. and love is not to be used to trick one person to what we want them to do for us or what we want to do to them.its a selfish act either yet its a horible thing to do. i wont participate to any act as such.
no matter what happens, whatever it is i will always Love my Dear Cecil. as a matter of fact i love her for what she was, what she is and what she will be. my love for her is timeless,limitless. im not saying this to boast to everyone that i love her just to prove that i love her.NO! im saying this because ive said it once and ill be saying it for the rest of my life.i love her, i love her, i love her and will always love her. my Dear Cecil, i will always love her.
it may seem that no one would be able to believe whats written here in this sordid blog. i only know that i love her nothing more.
love is not timebound nor limited. it will only be if people who allegedly felt love is permitting their so called love to be as such that setting limitless bounderies in which respect and understanding, humility and trust, love and love are not present. total respect, qualified love, makes love limitless not absolute respect and tangible love.
love is not based n physical interaction.but with emotional conglomerance.
let our love be dictated by our desire to love not by the desires we love.its not love at all if that is the case. and let us not count the faults of another but let us account all the faults and let that accounting be the basis on learning and moving forward.let our love be timeless and limitless.in this way we shall feel the same we shall always be young, timeless and pure at heart.
i will love Cecil completely and with this i will be complete. i will love Cecil wholly in which in this manner i shall be whole. i will love Cecil truthfully and with that only true love i will give her.i will love her without gaining anything from her for this i will gain everything. i will love her even if she cant love me back and for this reason i have love her completely,wholly truthfully and gained everything.
ill always be here for You my Dear.im wont go far. ill always be praying for You, knees bent with face down smacked on ground to where i belong. take care now be safe and stay happy.
God bless You
Friday, April 07, 2006
bkit ganun sobrang sakit?lahat na lang yata nasakin na.
ang sakit its like i feel im dying last night. if this pain due to this inflamation sana itll cease along with me. let it bleed some more please to hasten each day.
ang sakit sa dibdib. and its like im dying from the inside. to know how unimportant i am
ang sakit sa isip just thinking of these things.
God when will this end?when will you give me mine? its futile na din e. how could an unimportant man live na habang nabubuhay sya he knows how senseless his life is?how useless he is and how worthless and unimportant he is to those persons around him?
ive endured alot, will i endure some more?ang sakit sakit na kc e.gusto ko nang magpahinga from all of these pain.
you see, im so alone. ive endured everything by my own and still hangang ngayon mag isa parin ako. ive sacrificed alot. what more, how painful it will be pa?oh God im so much in pain physically, emotionally and God forbid spiritually.
ang sakit parin ngayon.parang ayaw ko na,
suko na po ako.pagod na ako.
ang sakit its like i feel im dying last night. if this pain due to this inflamation sana itll cease along with me. let it bleed some more please to hasten each day.
ang sakit sa dibdib. and its like im dying from the inside. to know how unimportant i am
ang sakit sa isip just thinking of these things.
God when will this end?when will you give me mine? its futile na din e. how could an unimportant man live na habang nabubuhay sya he knows how senseless his life is?how useless he is and how worthless and unimportant he is to those persons around him?
ive endured alot, will i endure some more?ang sakit sakit na kc e.gusto ko nang magpahinga from all of these pain.
you see, im so alone. ive endured everything by my own and still hangang ngayon mag isa parin ako. ive sacrificed alot. what more, how painful it will be pa?oh God im so much in pain physically, emotionally and God forbid spiritually.
ang sakit parin ngayon.parang ayaw ko na,
suko na po ako.pagod na ako.
a pile of cow dung
cow dung has much worth than i am. bugs have a use for it. they slur into it as food. ako?walang silbi
tama nga sya. unimportant and off less use. sana naging ibang tao na lang ako atleast in that way im perfect and important in the eyes who sees me. right now im so much invisible. their sight just pass through me e.and i wont even be remembered.
i always wonder. how many wl cry when i am laid down deep? cguro they wont even outnumber the fingers n my right hand.
thats how unimportant i am
God Bless
tama nga sya. unimportant and off less use. sana naging ibang tao na lang ako atleast in that way im perfect and important in the eyes who sees me. right now im so much invisible. their sight just pass through me e.and i wont even be remembered.
i always wonder. how many wl cry when i am laid down deep? cguro they wont even outnumber the fingers n my right hand.
thats how unimportant i am
God Bless
